It should be simple, remembering what matters today.  We should be able at any moment to tune into what is important and not get distracted by what is temporary, irritating, or irrelevant. We should be able to read a book and apply its wisdom to our daily lives.  We should be able to go to a workshop, have a transformational experience, and weave our new learnings into our daily lives simply and easily. It should be easy to remember what is important to us, but we all know it is not.

What happens to our good intentions?

After reading this new book or attending this terrific retreat or after listening to a fabulous tele-seminar, we make a resolution to change our lives for the better. We have learned activities, attitudes, behaviors, habits that we KNOW will bring us more freedom, joy, connection, and even success.

We all know we need to take action to change our lives, but even when we know better and have taken some steps to move our lives forward,  we fall back into our old habits, and within a few days or a few weeks we are right back to living our lives in our old limiting patterns.  Perhaps we have made a small shift toward a life that is more joyful, more meaningful, and more connected to what really matters to us, but for the most part, we are back to same ol’, same ol’.

How do we remember, how can I remember, what matters today?

This is a question I’ve been living with for the last twenty-seven years and I have come up with an answer and that answer is my WHAT MATTERS program.

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And how did I come up with this simple system, you may well ask?  How did I consolidate all I have learned in the last twenty-seven years, making it simple and doable for anyone at any point in their journey?

I am the most creative when I have a specific audience and purpose in mind, and this specific audience came to me as a new client.  She had a daunting list of challenges:  ADD, PTSD, panic attacks, depression, meth addiction, sexual abuse — she had every excuse to be curled up in a fetal position sucking her thumb.

But she came to me to find more joy.  She already had a team to support her, a psychiatrist and a therapist, but she wanted someone to catapult her out of her past and into a present and future free of anxiety, depression, poor boundaries, and hateful self talk.

As I held her in my heart and mind, asking the Universe how I might best support her Quest for Joy, a plan came to mind.  I have been in recovery for twenty-seven years.  Recovery is not sexy, there are no instant cures or any cures, but Recovery works.  Every day you get up, put your feet on the ground, tell the truth, take responsibility, and absorb and exude gratitude.  You do your work, reminding yourself that it is all about progress, not perfection.

You do the work.  No magic cures.  No magical thinking.  You do the work and it works.  It is messy.  Some days you slip back into old, unloving habits, but every day in Recovery you get a clean slate.  You own your own farts, clean up your messes, celebrate life, and take that the next step you are called to take.

The work of Recovery is hard to sell.  It is easy to sell magical thinking –”Just imagine your weight is off and it is!  just imagine a million dollars in your bank account and it will be there!  It’s all up to you!  Whatever happens to you is your fault.  You caused it and you can cure it just by changing the way you think!  Pay me a bunch of money and I will show you how easy it is!”  This is a multi-billion dollar industry I’m talking about here.

There is enough truth in this to make this pitch very seductive.  We do create much of our own reality by what we choose to focus on.  Our imaginations are very powerful.  Being able to imagine a positive future for yourself is a better predictor of college success than SAT scores.  What we think does matter.

But what we do matters even more.  Putting our intentions into action and sustaining that action in spite of defeats, set backs, doubts — this takes daily discipline and support.  In short, a Recovery Program.   So when my new client came to me, I applied what I knew about how I have crafted my childhood experiences  from living in raging disfunction with a violent alcoholic father and a codependent, high school dropout mother — into a life with deep, honest relationships, first and foremost with a husband I adore and two adult children of whom I am inordinately proud.

I thrive on traveling all over the world with my message, my songs, and my puppets, inviting people of all ages and cultures to step out of their fear and into the lives they have been called to live.  A comment I frequently hear is:  “I can’t believe you got this group up on their feet singing and dancing!” Or “That boy has never written or volunteered to read his work, and you got him to write and be eager to share in one lesson!”

I took what I have learned through my own recovery and asked the questions:  “How can I put this into a simple, easy to remember form?  How can I take the practices I have used over the years that are proven to work and make it easy for people to weave Recovery habits into their daily lives?  How can I help all of us remember what matters today?”

I asked the Question and I was given the Answer and that is the WHAT MATTERS TODAY Reboot Camp.

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I collected practices I use, arranged them in a meaningful acronym, and created a simple system to weave quick, effective, and fun habits to help people remember WHAT MATTERS.  This is, if I must say so myself, brilliant!

Want more?   Next week I will show you what I created.  I’ll be at The Natural Singer workshop, so I’m getting my newsletter ready ahead of time.  This weekly newsletter matters to me.

Oh, we mortals! We are so funny! Even when we have Enough, even when we are living in Abundance, we always seem to be seeking a Bigger Better Deal.  I’m living what I’m calling a “La Dee Dah” Life” right now, and every day I get clearer about how I add to my suffering by wishing for more than I have.  Aren’t I so humanly cute?

One of my favorite stories from the Bible is when Moses gets called to lead his people out of Egypt through the desert to the Promised Land.  I think we are called every day to lean into who we are meant to be, and I think it is easy to believe we’ve misunderstood. It is very human to doubt a call we are hearing. Or if we hear a call, we think it should be accompanied by a Business Plan with Sixteen Easy Infallible Steps.

But living a Wild, Precious Life does work this way.

I often think it should work this way, and perhaps Moses did too.

Moses didn’t get his call from a angel or even in a dream.  He was called by a burning bush. When he heard the burning bush talking to him, he said, (and I like to believe that his voice had a Robert DeNiro accent), “Are you talkin’ to me?”

He couldn’t believe he was being called to do something grand and amazing in the world. I can identify with that. You probably can too. Who are we to be amazing, fabulous, courageous, brilliant, and capable of transforming the world? Marianne Williamson says–Who are we not to be? We are children of the Universe. Our playing small doesn’t serve the world.

So, not many of us are ready to take action when we hear the Call.

Moses answers the Call, and leads his people through the desert for 40 years. Now 40 years or 40 days and 40 nights is Bible talk for a really, really, really long time. A time much longer than we thought it was going to take, a time which tests our perseverance, our patience, and our faith in the truth of the Call.

That’s a long time. If we were given the Call with a little notation that said, “Not to worry!” this will take you 6.3 weeks, or 2.4 hours, or three years and 10 days–if we just had a timeframe, we could adjust.

But we are never given the time frame. We are only invited to answer a Call. Bummer!

So if we answer the Call as Moses and his people did, we may be out in the desert for a long time, but the good news is every day we wake up surrounded with manna from heaven. Every day we are getting just what we need to get through the day. How about that? How cool is that? We’ve answered the Call; we’ve got a leader, and we are given every day just exactly what we need.  We are living a “La Dee Dah” Life of faith and gratitude.

But it’s not enough.

In the Bible we are told the followers of Moses, even though they have a leader who has obviously answered a Call, and even though they are given manna from heaven every morning, still, they can’t help themselves. They find a Golden Calf, and they worship it.

The Golden Calf Is new!  It has novelty. It glitters. We get a rush when we worship the golden Calf together. We have a new movement of which we’re a part. New, new, new, new, new!

Meanwhile, we are demonstrating a gross ingratitude for the manna we’ve been given. We have abandoned our journey. We are being distracted, even while we think we are moving on! This Golden Calf worshipping is fun, fun, fun! And, we don’t have to do the hard work of trekking through the desert anymore. We get to feel like we’re making progress when we were really lost in a Distraction That Looks Good. How perfect is that?

What does this have to do with you and me?

Where has a Golden Calf slipped into our lives?  What practices have we abandoned, practices that have served us well but don’t seem sexy enough anymore?  Where are we thinking “This is too simple to be good and too good to be true?”

The simple things work. Drinking water, getting outside every day for a walk, writing about how we feel, talking to the Universe in the form of prayer or a dialogue with our Angel Committee, eating fresh fruits and vegetables, lean meat, fiber–and hugely reducing our intake of sugar, especially in the form of high fructose corn syrup – all these things work and they are free or less expensive than Golden Calf alternatives.

(Check out this YouTube video on sugar and you will be radicalized!http://www.ironmagazineforums.com/diet-nutrition/104570-youtube-sugar-bitter-truth.html )

The simple stuff works, but it’s not sexy enough for us. When I worked in a drug and alcohol treatment center, I learned that recovery can feel boring at first. How can a healthy body and relationships and a healthy lifestyle compare with the drama of addiction, getting fired, screaming fights, and getting high on drugs that used to work for you but don’t anymore?

Recovery cannot compete with the adrenaline rush of addiction, at least not at first. If we are going to replace addictive habits of over busying our lives, eating to cover our uncomfortable emotions, seeking yet a new, complicated Answer to All Our Problems–oh, we can distract ourselves forever.

Surrendering to the Power of Simplicity

But when we learn to trust the simple things–smelling flowers, wiggling, hugging a tree, telling the people in our lives precisely what it is about them that we appreciate, singing in the kitchen as we put dishes in the dishwasher and wipe the counters, starting conversations with strangers, writing about the things in our life we are grateful for every day, and let ourselves frolic some every day–when we learn to live in this kind of Simplicity and trust it, our lives are transformed every day. La de dah!

This activity will shift your energy.  It works every time just the way you need it to work for you.  If you are feeling overwhelmed, frustrated, depressed, full of anxiety, or dealing with any challenge (this would be almost everyone)  then give this audio a listen and then write yourself a comforting letter from the future.

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I had no idea I was a perfectionist until I was in my late thirties.  To be a perfectionist, I thought a person had to actually achieve some perfection, and I knew that I never even came close.  But that is exactly what a perfectionist is:  someone who is obsessed with their flaws.  Perfectionists aren’t really perfectionists; they are “mistakeists;” They can see only what is wrong with the picture, never fully enjoying anything they have created because they are living inside its imperfections.

I’ve been told the Navahos deliberately include a flaw in their blankets because they know they are only human and don’t want to offend Great Spirit by seeking perfection.  I don’t know if this is true, but the thought of intentionally keeping an error, holding an error as sacred, as a gift of humility – well, I like this idea a lot.  It comforts me and helps me surrender a bit of my perfectionism whenever I am lucky enough to uncover it.  (I can never surrender it all because if I tried to surrender all of my perfectionism, I would be stuck in perfectionism again.)

This poem captures a rather mundane moment in my life as I was standing at my kitchen sink cleaning the bottom of an electric skillet.  I include it here as part of unpacking my personal baggage because I think my suffering over not being able to get the bottom of this skillet clean reveals how perfectionism weaves its way into our everyday lives, stealing our joy.

You are standing at the sink washing dishes, gazing out the window into your postage-stamp sized backyard. You are thirty-one, married, with two small, healthy children. You are a teacher; your husband is a teacher. You have everything you ever dreamed of having.

But the bottom of the used electric skillet you bought at Goodwill haunts you.   If only you could get it to shine, maybe your life would shine. Maybe you would have at last done it right. Maybe you would be able to see, in the reflection of the scoured frying pan, a validation for your life, a validation for the choices you have made.

You feel bullied by the bottom of this electric skillet, and you are ashamed of being so weak. You are sure you will never tell anyone about this moment.

The bottoms of all your other pots must shine too, every bit of baked-on food removed. They must glow like new, preferably hanging from a rack over the stove, their copper bottoms shining,  reflecting to the world your right to breathe.

The view from the window above the sink also accuses you. Where there were blackberry vines only a year ago, flowers now grow. You dug out those prickly vines the summer before your son was born, your body bloated by the nine-pound boy you were carrying. Standing on swollen feet, wearing silly little girl maternity clothes, you chopped and piled and dug, sweat dripped into your eyes.

The blackberry vines used to cover your fence. Now, after all of your work, you see that the fence sags. You can see with clarity, through your kitchen window that needs washing, the flower beds your husband so painstakingly double dug.

But the flowers are all wrong, you think, just rows of dahlias and zinnias. There is no art in it, just stupid color.

“How can anyone wreck a flower garden?” you wonder. You aren’t sure how this could be done, but you are sure you have done it. You can’t even plant a flower garden correctly.

And besides that, the yard is still uneven, small.   The ground, rough and sloping.   The cement on the patio is cracked.

“You are a professional,” you think, “married to a professional.   Why are you living like losers?”

Maybe if the bottom of the frying pan is shiny enough, the past will crumble with the crud as it swirls down the drain.

Then you see the scratches on your stainless steel sink, The permanent scratches that you did not even make, and you know it is hopeless. You know for sure you are too scratched, too covered in decades of grime. You will never shine again.

Once we own our personal baggage, magic can happen.  We can be free of the tyranny of taking everything personally: rejection, abandonment, criticism.  When it is not personal, when our right to inhabit the planet is not at stake, then we can play with life as a metaphor, as a dream.  We can let life be our teacher instead of our jailer.

If it’s not personal,
these unreturned phone calls from friends,
these unreciprocated invitations,
this lack of feedback –
all this seeming rejection –
if it’s not personal
then I don’t have to make any final decisions
about my value as a human being
and the limits of what’s possible for me.

If my pain is not personal,
then my lower-middle-class alcoholic upbringing
hasn’t put me in a bubble that suffocates my dreams.
My future is mine to create,
and the best may still be yet to come.

If this doubt and fear isn’t my personal pathology,
then I don’t have to worry about any pattern repeating endlessly
for the rest of my life.
If it’s not personal,
then this too shall pass.
The seven years of drought will be replaced by seven years of bounty.

If it’s not personal,
then it’s not personal.
It’s not stuck to my personality.
I don’t have to die to escape it.

If it’s not personal,
then it isn’t following me,
stalking me,
like some comet’s tail
or my shadow,
Jungian or solar.

If it’s not personal,
then I can stay alive
instead of drowning in the Slough of Despair.
I will be ready when the ship comes,
or the fishing boat,
or the yacht,
or when I find shore
and shelter
and coconuts to eat and drink.

If it’s not personal,
then all I have to do is survive
with as much joy as I can muster,
or, rather,
as much joy as I can let curl around my feet
or purr into my ear.

If it’s not personal,
then what am I supposed to learn from this ache in my belly?
Aye, there’s the rub.
Once I start looking for “supposed to’s”
I am trapped again in taking it personally.

So, if I don’t take my pain and doubt personally,
what is my next step?

I will get back to basics.
I will live one day at a time.
I will ask myself how I feel and what I want.
I will take a breath and take the next step right in front of me.
I will pay attention to the inklings and nudges I am feeling.

I surrender now to this mysterious vortex of doubt.
I let the howling swirl take me where it will –
perhaps into a shaman’s death,
again,
and yet again.

Amen.